There are no words to express the feelings and emotions that I have had the last few weeks. They have been all over the place. What I can tell you though is that “faith” and belief in God can get you through anything.
Last week I was called upon to make the final arrangements for my cousin who died somewhat unexpectedly. This is not my first time making final arrangements for a relative, but it is my first time doing it solo.
The first thing I did was to pray when I learned that I would be the one handling everything, and pray I did. As a woman of a certain age, I know that these things are beginning to be more and more frequent. As I told another cousin “we are our parents now”. We are now the ones who have to step up and make the decisions.
My heart was and is still heavy with the loss of my cousin, but my faith puts a smile in my heart when I remember that she still called me by my childhood nickname (no I’m not going to tell you). My heart is warm because I know that all of the pain has stopped.
My heart is smiling because I know that God does not make mistakes. My heart smiles because I know that even though this is a sad time I must remember the wonderful times we had together. As women of a certain age, we take on different roles as we mature, but each role is very important. Remember as you are called upon in difficult times that “thisisyourbestyear”. You were able to handle the situation.